okay, so my audition went great, but i haven't heard anything so it doesn't look like i'm a front-runner for this episode. but i walked out knowing i did the best i could (which is AWEsome) and that's all ya can do in this godforsaken business! so i'm moving forward and hoping they bring me in for something else. hey, maybe it'll a be a big fat guest star or a recurring next time and i'll book! maybe they are SAVING me for something bigger and better!
meanwhile i have started a new class with an interesting chap. it's just a 5-weeker and the set-up is a little odd because the experience level in the class rides from either end of the spectrum. there being only 10 of us, it makes for interesting work. the thing that really excites me about this is that the teacher, bruce ducat, has held many roles in this industry and not only does he know his stuff, he's the first to say "here's what to do. and anyone else will tell you a different way to do it. and so will the next guy." in terms of searching for a manager to supplement my less-than-illustrious theatrical agent situation.... i feel like i was lead to this class and this guy by a bit of synchronicity. we'll see what develops over the coming weeks. but i really like his vibe. a lot.
and just as importantly, i feel like he is someone who actually sees (or is starting to) my potential and commitment, who gets the idea that i am a great investment of time & energy because i am of the 1% who is going to make it in this career.
sounds like maybe i'm getting ahead of myself, but i don't think so. as always, i trust my gut. and my gut says that, whether it's a professional relationship that develops out of it or not, this class and the presence of this gentleman in my actor life are going to be very important to my near future!
Saturday, September 29, 2007
Wednesday, September 26, 2007
gotta love me some t.v. audition!
okay, it's 30 minutes before i need to leave for a pre-read for the new NBC series "Life" and i need to burn off some excess brain pattern. so here i am! i will, therefore, begin to tell my agent story.
(big inhale...)
many of you know that i have been a bit frustrated since signing with my theatrical agent. i had high hopes for our team, and it turned out that the auditions (including today's) i got after signing with her were all ones i got myself anyway~as usual. i tried meeting with her and asking what i could do to help her get me out there, beyond what i've been doing (which clearly works a little) and i got feedback that it was just getting started and that i should keep doing what i've been doing, but also just wait. now i've been told over and over~and even if i hadn't been told, my business acumen would not allow for this~that just because you get an agent doesn't mean you should sit back and wait for them to make your career happen. lots of stuff about this agent had made it difficult for me to have a relationship of any kind with her. when i went on vacation i came back vowing to move on. so started working on meetings.
this was a couple weeks ago.
2 nights ago, i was at a workshop, and my scene partner looked at my resume and said, "Oh, you're at *** too, huh? You know that ****** left, right?"
okay. WHAT? he's talking about *my* agent. my agent LEFT? and no one even NOTIFIED me? while it's not surprising that she wouldn't, the company itself MIGHT have sent out an email at least to let its clients know!
WOW.
so as i piece together more of the story from my gracious partner, i come to find out that he had the same stand-offish problem with this agent and i started to realize this departure might actually be the best thing that could have happened!
NOW i just have to get the new agent to find time (after taking over a huge roster, since 2 agents have left) to meet with me and see that i am worth some effort. the fact that i emailed him yesterday and got this audition later in the afternoon (thru a workshop) might be useful in keeping my name in his brain.
let's cross our fingers that my career just received a huge boon in the way of getting left. i'm thrilled! okay, time to put my face on. get back to you on my dish later!
(big inhale...)
many of you know that i have been a bit frustrated since signing with my theatrical agent. i had high hopes for our team, and it turned out that the auditions (including today's) i got after signing with her were all ones i got myself anyway~as usual. i tried meeting with her and asking what i could do to help her get me out there, beyond what i've been doing (which clearly works a little) and i got feedback that it was just getting started and that i should keep doing what i've been doing, but also just wait. now i've been told over and over~and even if i hadn't been told, my business acumen would not allow for this~that just because you get an agent doesn't mean you should sit back and wait for them to make your career happen. lots of stuff about this agent had made it difficult for me to have a relationship of any kind with her. when i went on vacation i came back vowing to move on. so started working on meetings.
this was a couple weeks ago.
2 nights ago, i was at a workshop, and my scene partner looked at my resume and said, "Oh, you're at *** too, huh? You know that ****** left, right?"
okay. WHAT? he's talking about *my* agent. my agent LEFT? and no one even NOTIFIED me? while it's not surprising that she wouldn't, the company itself MIGHT have sent out an email at least to let its clients know!
WOW.
so as i piece together more of the story from my gracious partner, i come to find out that he had the same stand-offish problem with this agent and i started to realize this departure might actually be the best thing that could have happened!
NOW i just have to get the new agent to find time (after taking over a huge roster, since 2 agents have left) to meet with me and see that i am worth some effort. the fact that i emailed him yesterday and got this audition later in the afternoon (thru a workshop) might be useful in keeping my name in his brain.
let's cross our fingers that my career just received a huge boon in the way of getting left. i'm thrilled! okay, time to put my face on. get back to you on my dish later!
Saturday, September 15, 2007
the stupid things we do....
i am not the kind of actor who is in class or a workshop & shuts down after her scene. meaning that i love to watch other actors work. love it. especially in those scenarios, which usually involve at least a handful of people whose work i already know, respect and admire. i'm not the person who is busy looking over their own scene while someone else is performing if i've yet to have my turn. i also don't generally sit around and communicate with the people around me during a scene.
but today... today i was in a workshop and was caught out at being totally and completely not myself. i had just performed my scene. having sat down while the next actors rose and started their's, i was able to focus fully on them because my scene was good and i had no need to review or critique myself in my head. they started, and were stopped for notes. while this break in the scene was happening i had a non-verbal exchange with the girl next to me, who was showing me that she had the same scene i did. and i was indicating that 1 other group also had the scene. why was this something we needed to share at that moment? no idea. what i do know is that in the midst of this exchange, the performing actors started their scene up again, and the CD who was holding the workshop proceeded to call the 2 of us out on our rude & inappropriate behavior of talking during someone else's work. and she was absolutely right~it was rude and completely self-centered. it was also not the sort of thing i~nor the girl who was involved in this with me~normally do. we both love to watch how other people craft their craft around 10 minutes rehearsal time. but there it was. we got a mini-lecture which made my cheeks burn and my brain go, "well, so much for my work, my money and any chance in that office. fuck."
so it sucked. and i know i need to shake it off and remember that i am not a rude and inconsiderate person, that i am a supportive and generous actor, that i really do respect other people's work time & space. but right now i'm just completely frustrated and agitated with myself and the situation. i hope that the CD is a generous sort of soul who won't hold this against either of us, give the benefit of the doubt that this was not a normal behavior. call us in anyway. but it just goes to show you.... there's never a time to forget your manners.
but today... today i was in a workshop and was caught out at being totally and completely not myself. i had just performed my scene. having sat down while the next actors rose and started their's, i was able to focus fully on them because my scene was good and i had no need to review or critique myself in my head. they started, and were stopped for notes. while this break in the scene was happening i had a non-verbal exchange with the girl next to me, who was showing me that she had the same scene i did. and i was indicating that 1 other group also had the scene. why was this something we needed to share at that moment? no idea. what i do know is that in the midst of this exchange, the performing actors started their scene up again, and the CD who was holding the workshop proceeded to call the 2 of us out on our rude & inappropriate behavior of talking during someone else's work. and she was absolutely right~it was rude and completely self-centered. it was also not the sort of thing i~nor the girl who was involved in this with me~normally do. we both love to watch how other people craft their craft around 10 minutes rehearsal time. but there it was. we got a mini-lecture which made my cheeks burn and my brain go, "well, so much for my work, my money and any chance in that office. fuck."
so it sucked. and i know i need to shake it off and remember that i am not a rude and inconsiderate person, that i am a supportive and generous actor, that i really do respect other people's work time & space. but right now i'm just completely frustrated and agitated with myself and the situation. i hope that the CD is a generous sort of soul who won't hold this against either of us, give the benefit of the doubt that this was not a normal behavior. call us in anyway. but it just goes to show you.... there's never a time to forget your manners.
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